My Sweet Rowan, I can't believe we are here. It's your first birthday, and yet, the memories of when we first met feel like yesterday. Life with you has been nothing short of an adventure. From the moment I found out you were a boy baking away in my belly the adventure set sail. I think back to those weeks I spent crying about not knowing how to be a Mom to a little boy, and it makes me want to start crying again, not because I was right, but because being a Mom to a little boy is nothing ...
Motherhood
The Highlight Reel
I've been trying to write a post about the stage of life I'm currently in and so far I have 4 drafts and hate every single one of them. I just can't find the words I want to say or convey what I'm really feeling onto the screen. Then, today it happened. A moment struck me and all the feelings I was trying to put into words built up and I was ready to spew a word vomit fountain. Actually, that sounded pretty gross, but you catch my drift. It all started when I found a feature that I never ...
Made for Motherhood
This post was an emotional one to write. The personal ones usually are. But still, with tears in my eyes, there's an emotional charge in my fingertips that is allowing the words to flow freely onto the page, so I must get it out of my system. Grab your popcorn, it's going to be a long one. Motherhood is filled with the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Sometimes those lows can break us down, they defeat us. Those lows tell us that we're no good at this Motherhood game, they tell us ...
A Year Ago …
A year ago ... I sat on the other end of a phone call in disbelief of what the other person was saying. My heart fell to my feet as the word "Boy" echoed through my head in slow motion. I couldn't focus, I grew nauseous, and before I could grasp what was going on, I broke out into tears. I was 12 weeks pregnant with a boy, that I was convinced was a girl. I thought it was a girl, I wanted it to be a girl, and somehow, that blood test HAD to be wrong. A year ago ... Was the start of ...
Some Days My Kids Suck the Life Out of Me
Let me start by saying I love being a Mom. It is, by far, THE best job I have ever had, and I am so fortunate to be able to stay at home with my babies. That being said, that doesn't mean that all days are glamorous. In fact, there are days where my kids suck the life out of me. Yep, I said it. I love my kids to death, and would do anything in the world for them, but some days they push every last button I have and I short circuit from all of the chaos. Don't get me wrong, most days are ...
Gender Disappointment Doesn’t Mean You’re Ungrateful
You know going in to the whole realm of having a baby that there is a 50/50 chance of one gender or the other. Sure there are ways to sway the possibilities, some may work, others don't, but in all reality it's really Russian Roulette with X and Y chromosomes.I always said, I didn't care what I was having as long as the baby was healthy. Of course, I felt strongly about one gender over the other, but ultimately felt that I'd be happy with whatever gift of life God chose to give me. ...
